Facing My Fear

Well today I awoke a FREE woman! Free from what you ask? Free from the fear of my hair. Yes for years I have feared my hair. I feared its kinkiness, I feared it's tightness, I feared my curly locks. Because I didn't know what to do with it, I refused to touch it, wash it, comb it, style it - Without the help of a professional.

But last night something happened. I walked into my house, put down my bags, stood in front of that sink, turned on that water, PRAYED-CRIED, and took the plunge. As the water began to stream down my hair, I realized there was no turning back. I didn't know what I would see at the end of this process, but I refused to give up. I was reminded of the scripture in Philippians 4:13 - I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me, yes ALL THINGS - even wash and style my own darn hair. So I asked God for help, for the strength to not be afraid of the thing that He gave me.

So after 1 hour and half of co-washing, moisturizing, and twisting it was over- I had stood in the face of fear with faith as my sword and slayed that HAIR DEMON! As I looked in the mirror at myself, I felt a flood of emotion. I cried, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted from me, I cried, because I saw how beautiful I was, Kinks and All! I cried because I realized that there is NOTHING that I can't do, God has equipped me with everything I need to overcome any obstacle I face - even my Hair.

When I came to work this morning, everyone that saw me stared in amazement - compliments of WOW your hair looks amazing - can I touch it! Some even had a little "hair envy" (smile). So today I embrace the ME that God purposed for me to be and I say to her I LOVE YOU!